update on WWH

today was a day that i have been nervous about for 4 weeks. this april 17th day. i didn't want to go to the doctor anymore. i didn't want to go to a "specialist". i didn't want to hear anything else. i just wanted to have wyatt and hold him.

well, i shouldn't have been worried.

i was lucky enough to go to dinner with my doctor last week, who i now call a friend.

i saw my beautiful boy today and man, was he beautiful.

his heart, his brain, were "textbook" material they said. i cried. i cried because the man who did my sonogram was SO nice. i cried because he talked to us, filled us in on what he was doing. told us what he liked seeing. showed us the miracle that wyatt is. my 18 week appointment was scary and silent. today was a day where we were just in awe of him.

when we did the 3D, we saw his cleft and it didn't faze me one bit. he actually looked like lawton ;) i saw this baby, this boy who is ours. i saw a beautiful little lip that is going to be fixed in time.

this time it wasn't scary seeing him. it IS him. this IS wyatt. he IS beautiful and he IS mine.

i can't wait to see him again in 4 weeks.

bring it baby boy ;-)

next stop: interviewing surgeons and seeing what and who are options are. i think i am ready now. i had to take a few weeks to digest everything, and now after today, i am ready for the next step. this boy is strong. this boy is big and this boy will change our life for the better.